This one will be extremely short. Just regard this as something like an update.

Anyway, what makes atypical depression different than… what was that…yes, Melancholic depression, is that your mood can get better with positive things happening, while melancholic depression will not really change much (still sad or down).

So it just strengthen the hypothesis. Lately I haven’t been able to eat something good, and these two whole day I haven’t ate anything. Then I tried to change my mood by reading mangas, then doing some karaoke with Sing by Smule app. I registered as VIP (darn that was expensive), so I started singing, and realised something.

I usually eat so much spicy food, like, spicy condiments in every food except sweets. Hell, I even enjoy eating fruits with sour-spicy sauce. But these days I can’t even eat them, so my throat got really better, and I can even reach higher tones I normally am not able to. I had trouble singing Only my Railgun before, but then it went all smooth, without any problems. Even Kaede (by Spitz), I can sing it smoothly, which mean it is the first time I can do that.  

My mood, just rocketed like that. Not that my suicidal thoughts or any other symptoms changed or went away. It’s just my current mood.